Tears aren't
necessarily a sign of weakness. Yes, sometimes, when I am exhausted or ill. Physically
weak. But there are tears in my eyes at other times too. When I am touched by a
loving gesture, when I hear of someone's bravery, something good that has
happened to a deserving person, something bad that has happened to one who
didn't deserve it.......the list is long and as I grow older, the list is
growing longer.
So what? It's okay
to be human, I guess. To participate in the joys and sorrows of other human
beings, whether in the flesh or the characters in books.
Long ago I read a
poem by, I think, George Herbert. It was about a little girl, Margaret, who
cries when the yellow leaves fall. At 14, the poem seemed strange; there were
no yellow leaves in my life then. Margaret's identifying with the falling
leaves seemed stranger still.
Now, hair graying
and the heart learning to cope with the many good-byes of life, I understand
Margaret's tears. Leaves turn yellow and fall, and with every falling leaf I am
reminded of our uncertainty and mortality. Parents grow older, friends lose
touch, children follow their calling away from home......
But from now I
hope my tears will be more about beautiful memories and re-unions. I shall
learn to weather the sorrows of life and look forward to the joys.